My name is Kelly.
Today marks the start of my 730 day journey.
My Diagnosis: Generalized Anxiety Disorder, PTSD, Panic Disorder, Depression, Agoraphobia, Adjustment Disorder, Insomnia, and Acute Stress.
Lately I have also been fighting off a new demon, an eating disorder, which is taking over my mind but has yet to take over my life.
I am Prescribed: Ativan, Celexa, and HydroxyZine.
I have previously taken: Xanax, BuSpar, Zoloft, and Valium.
This blog will document my journey in overcoming my mental illnesses, returning to a normal life, and learning how to never get back to this point again.
For years I was told to keep quiet about my problems, to never publicize that there was something wrong, and to never refer to my problems as a mental illness. The reason for this? Future employers might deny me work, people will judge me, and because it makes me sound crazy.
Well, I do have a mental illness. I have an entire clusterfuck of them.
I am not ashamed of it.
A cancer patient wouldn’t tell the world they had the flu, so why should I buffer people by saying “I’m going through rough times.”?
I am going through more than rough times. My mind has overcome my life.
I am crazy. I am insane. I am mentally ill. I have problems.
However you want to put it, I am sick.
But I am not the crazy person you see in the movies tied up in straight jackets banging their head against a padded wall.
I am the face of mental illness.