730 Deep Breaths

A 730 day journal- documenting the life of a woman with mental illness.

About

My name is Kelly. 

Today marks the start of my 730 day journey. 

My Diagnosis: Generalized Anxiety Disorder, PTSD, Panic Disorder, Depression, Agoraphobia, Adjustment Disorder, Insomnia, and Acute Stress.

Lately I have also been fighting off a new demon, an eating disorder, which is taking over my mind but has yet to take over my life.

I am Prescribed: Ativan, Celexa, and HydroxyZine.

I have previously taken: Xanax, BuSpar, Zoloft, and Valium.

This blog will document my journey in overcoming my mental illnesses, returning to a normal life, and learning how to never get back to this point again.

For years I was told to keep quiet about my problems, to never publicize that there was something wrong, and to never refer to my problems as a mental illness. The reason for this? Future employers might deny me work, people will judge me, and because it makes me sound crazy.

Well, I do have a mental illness. I have an entire clusterfuck of them.

I am not ashamed of it.

A cancer patient wouldn’t tell the world they had the flu, so why should I buffer people by saying “I’m going through rough times.”?

I am going through more than rough times. My mind has overcome my life.

I am crazy. I am insane. I am mentally ill. I have problems.

However you want to put it, I am sick.

But I am not the crazy person you see in the movies tied up in straight jackets banging their head against a padded wall.

I am the face of mental illness. 

14 thoughts on “About

  1. Hopefully you’ll find this place very supportive….. and that your stories will help others too 🙂

  2. I found your blog when i noticed you had linked to mine; i thank you greatly for that! 😉 Glad to see that you found that mind mapping tool useful.

    While we’re both presenting a stage of our lives for the world to see yours takes courage to present (and mine certainly does not). It’s so unfortunate that there in this day and age still is some social stigma associated with mental illness.

    Sadly because of that stigma i think there are many more who suffer in silence than you’d believe, and i’m sure that finding a blog like this will be very helpful for someone.

    It’s a great blog and i will follow it!

    / Mika

    • I am glad you decided to take a peek at my blog. And I am glad I could link-back to yours!

      Sadly, you are correct. I feel the stigma of being ‘insane’ on a regular basis. It is something I am slowly learning to deflect. If you aren’t fighting hard enough for something, you won’t get anywhere, right?!

      I truly hope you are correct. Just the few posts I have done so far have helped me sort out my thoughts and feelings better than I ever have been able to before. And people like you- who support me without ever exchanging a spoken word to me- provide me with something I am greatly lacking (A Positive Outlook).

      Thank you for following and commenting! I hope I can share your articles with my followers again!

  3. Thank you for being the face of anxiety, Kelly. I applaud you and wish you strength. Your blog will shed light into the darkness.
    x

  4. Never underestimate the power of the internet. There are tons of great people out here! I wish you the best!

  5. I applaud your courage and am inspired by your willingness to share your journey with others. Accepting and facing the challenges in our lives is the most important direction we can take to a truly fulfilling life; sharing that experience will help others find direction as well.

    • I learned through several self-help books that the easiest way to overcome something is to talk about it until in no longer matters to you. That turned into inspiration for this blog. I am thankful for your support and encouragement! Have a great day 🙂

  6. Kelly, I’m glad you found my blog. Thank you for the follow. I admire your courage and I think you’ll find a lot of support through the blogging community. Your honesty and willingness to talk about mental illness is inspiring and I think you will help others in the process. Good to meet you here.

    • I am glad I stumbled across it too! It is a great blog. Thank you for visiting mine as well. Your support and kindness will truly help me through all of this. Thank you thank you thank you!!!

  7. Thank you for following EFED. I pray what you find here is encouraging and uplifting. I pray that God will bless you on your journey and that He will bring healing in His precious time. God bless you.

  8. Thank you for dropping by and following Malcolm’s Corner.

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